I want someone to ask me how I'm feeling and really care about my response. I want them to actually fully listen to what I'm saying, make a connection with me, and then respond.
I feel like I've just been floating through life. Not much more substance than a ghost. Extreme ups-and-downs in a very short amount of time and I don't feel that anyone cares. Not truly.
I don't want someone to help me out because they feel its their duty to God or their religion or family. I want them to help me and listen to me because they, themselves genuinely, sincerely, and honestly want to.
I have a hard time staying motivated after I start something. I can get off track very easily, mostly because I'm easily distracted and I get bored. I need a person, a someone, who will motivate me. Not in an annoying irritating way, but in a way that shows that they wholeheartedly want me to succeed.
I have a dilemma as I don't like getting close to people. It is to easy to be let down, and I don't want to let others down. I know that this statement is a complete contradiction as, one way or the other, something has to change.
I want to stop feeling so lonely and depressed all the time. I want to meet someone who truly makes me feel alive and the most like myself and completely loves me for it.
I want to be able to look at a clock and not care what time it is. I want to stop worrying about the next time I'll have money. I want to stop having very little, if anything, to look forward to. I want to stop feeling anxiety and tension all the time. I want to stop waking up thinking I can't wait to go back to sleep. I want to stop longing for things in the past that are done and gone.
I want to be able to truthfully be happy.
